Hung Over .

Heyyy :)

I've been having major breakdown ever since god knws when. But oh well, Glad things are getting slightly better. Basically, I got a job in Topshop, 2nd Im down with illness, 3rd I've been having a pretty great time with Chow Yi Va. Sleepovers, Hanging out, Job hunting & literally every second i get to see her. My new 24/7 . BAHAHAHA ! ♥

Moving On, Since im not feeling really well, I decided to stay home @ night, which I spend my time skyping with Yiva & Prank someone. Someone which i seriously love but this is just for laugh. So yeahh, He blew me off with simple words, Which i cant even remember what he said but i was pretending to be super emotional & mad over his words. Me & Yiva decided to make a prank on him. Which we succeed !

Joshua Benjamin 05 November at 23:56

Wei you kenapa marah? since when you so fast marah 1? chill la. i jk with you only la.girls all where can get angry 1? later all the wrinkles come out nobody want di la. chill la. i was just jk with you. i since when will get angry 1. i know who to get angry with and who to not angry at. you kawan baik i mana boleh ada dendam semua kan? so chillex la sista! im sorry k??

& 3 missed calls + several msn msges. Which got me and yiva cracking up over skype ! HAHAHAH. JOSHIE, I KNOW YOU LOVE ME RIGHT, DONT KILL ME !

Anyhoooo, Got a call from BrendaMak not long ago asking me the world most random ques, Asking me to sleepover @ 12. & CLUBS. HAHAH unbelivable, But i've suggested her to give it a try to interview in TopShop since i dont wanna do it alone. Lack of confidence though. But whtvr it is, ALL THE BEST BABE !

Besides that, Today was plain boringgg, Im so hung over plus spend my afternoon in Station One with my babes & Kiasiang, Thnks for the ride ! :D

xxxx

Say hello, Sweet memories.

Thanks for the thing you've done, thnks for all of the late night calls, Thnks for being there with me through the toughest moment, Thnks for being such a great bud all the time.

I love you & I still do, I dont know what i've done that things gotta end so ugly. My heart's scattered into a million pieces. Loosing you, is like loosing a soulmate. Which i also see this coming, I would do whtvr it takes to change the past. But life's the climb, It was meant to live with mistakes.

Swear on my life, I've never betray. Whatever you heard, Whatever you think. I couldnt control. But all i expected was trust. Flashing back on the past, got me crying a river. But all i know is, No point being emotional about the things i've done. The word you said, The things you done. I've tolerate. I've tried to apologise without even knowing what i've done, to fix things up.

But over and over again, You got mad over tiny little things. Im so dissapointed yet , Im trying my best to move on. Flooding myself with tears tonight, Is the only thing i could do right now.

Perhaps, Even i've got myself kneeling on my knees, You might not show mercy. Im giving up. Im trying hard. Whatever happens few months back will remain as my sweetest memories. So goodbye my guardian angels , Im wishing you all the best.♥

XXXX

Livin' it

Heyyy .

truly am sorry for neglecting my blog for almost a week. I've been pretty busy lately with outings. Been hanging out alot since finals are over. Besides that, Im Officially broke & I freaking need a job ! My life's been pretty happening + Outings with the girls definately light up my life ever since drama is over. Anyway, shall rewind to thursday since i cant really recall what happen on tues/wed.

Thursday -

Been having Joshie as my alarmclock since monday. Woke up over his call @ 10.30pm & Had breakfast @ homee. Soon, had a call from Yiva to go to Sunway. Since i was webcaming Yudesh, I asked him to tag along since it was his bday. Headed for lunch @ Mcd with Yudesh & my bro. Had a long time cracking up on Yudesh's joke. Yiva's mom came to pick all of us to sunway after lunch. Headed to Redbox to meet up KianHong & the rest . Then headed out to get the movie tickets for the guys.

Watched Jennifer's Body, Was a major dissapointment. Not as good i as i thought it would be, but overall i had fun laughing @ yudesh gayness. Totally gay. Met up with Teethan afterthat and headed to mamak for dinner & chilling session. Anyway, Kianhong was leaving for Singapore! Take care dude . xxx

Friday -

Stayed @ home till Yiva came over. Called Mcd for delivery. & Yes, We've been stuffing ourselves with mcd every single day. Besides that, Composed the rest of our unfinished song tht day, Glad it went well. Had Kiasiang to take us out for dinner @ 7.30pm. Headed to Tanjung afterthat , met up with Ameline, Prem, Joshie & had a pretty rough night . still, It ended well .

Saturday-

Woke up @ 11am since i had a call from Hajar to ask me to join her for MJ's movie last night. Headed to Pyramid after breakfast. & Overall, the movie was great, was eventually better than Jennifer's body with my own opinion. Met up with Kiasiang & Yiva afterthat & headed for Sushi . Had a good time laughing at Yiva's lameness. BAHHAHAHA. Besides that, Headed to buy Mandy's bday present & Mom came aftertht to fetch me home.

Dinner was with Yiva, Mom & Bro @ OU. had Itallianies instead. Walked around, Bought several hairclips from F21 since we failed to get anything from Diva. & Not forgetting to mention that both of us are in a serious financial crisis. Moving on, Headed tanjung after that with yiva, Met up with Kiasiang & Bumped into Joshua & Andrew. Had both of them joining us , since kiasiang went home early. Was literally playing with the sanitizer & Hand lotion which got both of the guys disgusted. STILL, i had rashes the next day .

The courtesy of Joshua Benjamin & Andrew Phang. Imma sue them yo !

Sunday?

PLAIN BORING ! all i get today was NAGGINGS OVER NAGGINGS. this is partly the main reason why i despise staying @ home. It bores the shit outta me.

Chilled with Yiva , Joshua , Prem & Andrew @ Melur till midnight.

Bro's new baby

xxx

Friends to hold

IM SO LAZY TO BLOG !

Just got back from chillin session w Yiva & Yudesh. Had a pretty fun weekends with em girls fact that im having a major financial crisis but overall it pays off. Besides that , Had a great afternoon with Ameline ,Puihwa & Yiva . & a great night with the family @ Chilli's.Finals are over and im so gonna have fun, before that I need the blings ! BAHAHAAH

Anyway, past few days been pretty awesome. Shall rewind a little.

Friday-

Had lunchdate with the girls, Mandy,Puihwa,Ameline & Yiva. Soon the boys joined, Joshie,Leon & Owi. Had a pretty great time laughing my ass off with them, Seriously major jokers which is why i'll treasure them forever. (L) went out with Meiting,Ameline,Yiva & the rest during the night & Kahlok sending us home @ 1am. Had Meiting & Ameline for sleepover which was pretty fun . Munching on food during late night . Plus, It was my first time singing to a guy which is Owi over webcam. He's a joker. Funny infact, Got me laughing all night long which practically took all the pain away. (L)

Saturday -

Breakfast with my family and friends. Had a rough time eating up my food which was literally killing me. Went over to ss15 to window shop. Something caught my eye which i wanted to badly ! mom insisted of course. Daddy brought us for dinner @ Pyramid afterthat and bought me a new dress from F21. Infact, dad requested me to chop of my hair & he'll get me a new handbag. Which got me thinking hard the whole day. Went over to tanjung to meet up with Lewis,Yudesh, Kiasiang ,Joshie,Andrew,Ameline & Meiting. Got home @ 12.30am sharp. this time had Lewis for sleepover.

Overall, weekends are awesome. I finally got the thing i wanted today after 24 hours of dreaming. I couldnt resists and I just bought it without a second thought. Thanks to Puihwa who got me so tempted by the stuff.

xxx

HEHEHE, NEXT PLEASE !

Daily

Heyy,

I've been pretty caught up with finals & Im glad that everything is over. Did my best during Art, Hopefully might score this time orelse is jst gonna be another major let down. Besides that, I've been feeling exhausted & Im so flooded with food after hanging out with the girls. Anyhoo, Im having the best time ever & Im happy this way, Not regretting on my decision infact im feeling rather drama-free than before.

Moving on, I've missed out so much in class today. Fact that the girls was talking bout the after-exam plan & I was literally pigging all the way till school ends. I feel like a total pig . Got home, had my lunch & back to bed again. Pretty much of an A class pig right? Hence, Black out during the night, Had my time to chill with my bro & Baby jack outside the balcony with beers. Awesome time. Fact that i got hot wax all over my body which was literally burning my skin, But heck cares. The night turn out pretty good.

Currently listening to Paula Deanda & Boys like girls song, Which kinda reminds me of the days i use to hangout with Mandy. Im missing those time like crazy. Why do i feel so far apart from you now? :(

Lunchdate with the girls tmrw! Cant wait.

xxx

i'm just a little too not over you

Ze' Awesome

Hello.

Everything's been pretty awesome. Had spend most of the week hanging out with the girls . Things are pretty fine right now & Im hoping it'll stay this way forever. Anyway, Shall rewind *

Saturday ;

Japanese during the noon with the family & Went over to Paparich to meet up with Meiting ,Leon, PhengYeik, Rodney, Tingsheng and the bunch till Moses came and pick me up to some BBQ party and met up with Ashvir . The party was pretty dead so ended up heading for chilling session in Tanjung . Was with Moses,Leon, Choo, Ashvir,Meiting, Phengyeik etc, till something got on my nerves and switch to another table with Meiting. Had KianHong, Dixxun , Songian & Kaisheng joining us afterthat. Glad tht the night turn out pretty awesome. Had Kaisheng sending us back @ 12. Thnks for the ride !!

Sunday ;

Did literally NOTHING but sleep throughout the whole afternoon. Was pretty exhausted. Till had several calls from Ameline. But she was @ starbucks & basically i was half dead. Woke up @ 7pm headed for dinner @ somewhere far. Got home by 9.30, Had chilling session with Joshie, Meiting, Leon, Lewis, My bro, Mc jiann and the rest. Couldnt recall much on what happen on Sunday :S

Monday ;

Breakfast with Ameline,Mom & My bro @ Kuchai lama. Headed pyramid afterthat for movies, Met up with Meiting, Yiva, Leon ,KaiYang & Kahlok. Chilled. Got really irritated after recieving a call from Ameline which totally driving me crazy. But luckily friends were there to calm me down. Besides that, Had Kahlok fetching all of us home @ 5, Which all of us had a pretty fun ride . Hahah, Shall upload the vids asap. Got home rest till i recieve a phone call from Kahlok to ask me to get ready. He came over @ 9pm with meiting & Yiva. Chilled @ tanjung w Kahlok,Yiva,Meiting , mybro, Ameline, Eugene, Kaiyang & leon. they headed home pretty early & Yiva was still there, Accompanied her & Yudesh came joining us afterthat. Headed home @ 12 sharp. Phone date with Yiva afterthat till I almost fell asleep.

Tuesday ;

Had my dental appointment during the morning, headed over to Puihwa afterthat & Had McD for lunch. Yiva joined us with Kiasiang. Did nothing much but literally just Fooling around with both of the nutcase. Had KiaSiang to send us back to Puihwa's , ( Kiasiang freak the shit outta me during the ride home ) and all we did is just teasing each other and cooking instant noodles for the 2nd round of FOOD. shit, Im so flooded with food today. Meiting asked to join her to ac along with Kahlok & Kaiyang, But couldnt make it due to School that i've gotta attend tmrw. Besides that, took Jack out for a walk with Yiva & Had a great time laughing @ Jack's embarrassing moments.Headed home @ 7pm. Finally settled home for once. Aint going out tmrw/ thurs. Friday night out with Yiva,Meiting & Ameline again ! (Y) Awesomee.

*Swear upon my life that I never created ANY video on youtube. Only account that belongs to me is @NicMandaShar. The others are all freaking bullshits. Hence,Is an act of immature to post something on youtube under my behalf without my notification, This is such a shame, Grow up & If you got the guts to do it, Place it under your name instead.

Prediction

Heyy,

Im really sorry for neglecting my blog. Been really busy with em' girls & Studies. Anyhoo, Life's been pretty amazing. Fact that there's conflict in between which doesnt affect any of us plus its pretty ridiculous, So i couldnt care less . Moving on, Had been spending my time lately with Puihwa,Ameline, Yiva & Meiting since PMR is over. Crazy moments & all the pictures are with ameline.

Was hanging out with Joshie & Ameline ytd while waiting for Puihwa to do her hair . Met up with Meiting & Moses afterthat to kill boredom. Freaking 3 hours okayy.. Had tingsheng,Prem & Ignatius joining us afterthat. Basically was just chilling. Had Kiasiang to fetch me to AC to collect something & Back to SUMO and meet up with Yiva & Puihwa .

Chilled @ Tanjung with Joshie, Kiasiang, Yiva, Meiting , Ameline, Prem, Kaiyang , Ashwin and Moses. Had some problems but everything was fine aftertht. Though conflicts do occur, but heck i will not entertain shits anymore. I just want my life back to how it use to be . Had some personal talk with Joshie & Prem afterthat @ my place. Which i guess did help a whole lot. Nothing much to expect but just going with the flow.
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Saturday ;

Had brunch with my family @ some Japanese restaurant. I was basically flooding myself with sushi since yesterday, * Phobia * aint touching any sushi for the next 2 months. Anyhoo, Might be heading out with the boys @ night, No plans yet since the Movie plan with Meiting was cancelled. So basically might be just another chilling session with the boys . Moving on, Pictures below are by Canon Eos 450D & Nikon D70.

Canon pics ;

Nikon's pic ;

NEXT POST ......

xxx

Im falling apart , But all i gotta do is keeping it to myself (U)

CYWT ! HBD & ILY !

Hello world,



Im here to wish my one & only baby cousin sis , Carissa Yuen . a very happy 15th birthday ! Though, i didnt get to wish you in person. Still, i love you & I sincerely hope you do well in ur current major exam. Wishing you all the best in everything , Just so you know that i'll always got your back no matter what happens alright? OHANA !! (L) BAHAHA.

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BORING SUNDAY ! all i practically did was, sleep, tuition, eat, tv, net. Whtvr, Exam's still on ! I shall not dream & get myself back on the study track. Plus, I just cant stop saying ,

" I CANT WAIT FOR FINALS TO BE OVER !! "

K, I must shut up for noww..

Despite that, Promise to try my best to cut down on the emo posts which is irritating my friends. HAHA, Sorry BABYs ! :P

; Presenting the nutcase !

xxx - More pictures to come !

SEI JOSHUA , HIGHLIGHT SOMEMORE LAA , STOP DIGGIN GOLD YO' !

Returns

Heyy..

Life's been pretty good for me lately. Problem free, Okay, not exactly problem free. But im overcoming every problems im having on my own. consider as P&C . So basically, I just want things to go with the flow as Im soo fedup of fighting for my dignity, as i know that i know my limits & I know wht im doing. I dont wanna live for people, Im tired of that. Im not gonna say that im sinless, I do sins. But as i say, I know my limits.

To whoever who's trying to control my life, Please. Give up. I take advise/lecture. But Its up to me whether to take it or not. Im so sick of living the life that im livin in the past few months. Becoming a person which i dont wanna be, Trying to control every single thing that i got interest in. Im so sick of that, From now, Living for others , i will not entertain. Whether i will die tmrw or not, Its up to faith . I dont wanna live life unhappy, I just wanna enjoy every moment of it .To people who thinks im a bad influence, Go ahead. Im running outta energy .

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Anyhoo, Just got back from Star w/ Prem, Ameline, Lewis,Joshie & Andrew. Had a pretty fun night w/ Prem while waiting for Joshie & Andrew to come. He approximately lost rm1.20 to me ! BAHAHAHA. Besides that, Had study group w/ Ameline, BrendaM & Puihwa which was awesome ! Crazy moments on the rooftop which is unforgettable. then had dinner with my family during the night ! Currently having my exam, Which im trying my best to score on certain subject. History a B at least? Hopefully.

On the other hand, People can stop telling me what to do as i already said that i will not entertain & I hope they would give up on that. I cant explain what im feeling right now, But all i know is, I wouldnt cross the line. I've never step in the club & Never will till i hit the legal age. Thats for sure. Been turning down such apportunity since last year & Still keeping up on that.

Whether or not to trust, Its up to you. Whether you wanna continue lecturing which is doesnt help in any way or just let me be . Nobody did the offer for my sins but me, Myself. I personally think that people im hanging out w/ right now is the most amazing thing that ever happen, Which i can find truefriend that will last in it. Im ignoring every single thing that people is trying to ask me to & Im doing every single thing, for once, for myself.

I got no comments about me hurting my love ones, But as i know they do care alot that is making me to cross the line, Which i dont want to. I've been rebellious, I am still. That is why, Dont challenge as people might not know what im aiming for next. Im already trying my very best to balance things up , Education & Outings. For once, Let me free with trust.

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Pictures from Amanda's FLOUR ATTACK !

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BLABLABLA ! STUPID JOSHIE , YOU SEE WHAT SEE !!!! NOTHING WILL APPEAR ! YOU LOSER!

Amanda Looi turns Sixteen !

Hello :D
This post is specially for my longest friendship which i do cherish throughout the past 4 years, Though we got caught up in major conflict @ times but im glad that we sort things out. Things got on to a pretty rocky path this year, But fortunately we got to pull it through. The one and only friend, Who i use to talk till midnight about hunks & STILL we're having the same routine once in a blue moon. Anyway, tht special person is Amanda Looi Ming Li.

Back in form1

Despite of you being my superfriend for not only the longest but also the nutcase who's been driving me crazy since. I still miss those time where Me, You & Puihwa had in the rain last year, I miss last year, Where there's only Me & You in the same class and use the blast everything till the teacher got so pissed. Basically, You were my 24/7. I miss hanging out with you :'( the times where we got to watch Jonas Brother 3D & Hannah Montana. & Got hung over by Nick Jonas. Had Sushi together all the time. HAHAH (Y) awesome times , Unforgettable memories.

To be frank, though we're not as close as we use to be, But still there's a place for you in my heart which could never be replace. Is your big day, i truly am sorry for not getting you your present since we're having our finals. But i did something for you & I hope that you'll appreciate it.

Baby Mandy, Happy sweet 16th ! I lovee you & I wish you all the best ahead. Sorry for things that made you unhappy & You should know that None of us got the heart to actually stab you inside right? We love you BabyMandy ! (L)(K)

4 years of friendship & still counting righttttt mandy? Bahahah :D LOVEYOU !

The memories are only kept between us, Our heart/ our mind. The memories which are irreplaceable. Thnks for giving me such great support & friendship. I'll treasure you throughout my life, I love you Amanda Looi Ming Li !

xoxo .

Neverending lovestory . Perhaps,This is the time i fell in love with A.

Bullet Pierced

Hello ;)

Life's been pretty good lately. Except the fact that Im currently having finals, But im feeling pretty confident this time :) Moving on, I just got back from group study with Sharlene,Puihwa,Joshie,Mc & Rodney. Ohwelll, I dont know what to blog about... Shall continue with the next post, All i know is. I Cant wait for finals to be over.

Pictures below taken few days back, Using Ameline's Canon EOS 450D.

XXX

*? perhaps i got no faith with love. Though its like a bullet piercing through my heart but I'll just fake a smile telling that everything is fine @ the moment :)